July 9, 2023: Psalm 139:6 - Such Knowledge is Too Wonderful for Me

“Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain it.” - Psalm 139:6

Has someone ever said something to you that was so personal and you knew that only that one person could have said it because they knew you like no one else did? I had that experience back in 2012 when the Holy Spirit spoke to me. It wasn’t a verbal, out loud speaking but it was a voice in my head that I absolutely knew was not from me and I knew it was from Almighty God through His Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit spoke to me as a loving Father in the words of a song not yet written and not yet sung. God knows that I love music, I always have. I have found refuge many times in very difficult situations by listening to music. Music calms me. The Holy Spirit spoke words to me that were straight out of the Bible, and it was the good news of Jesus Christ, and how He could set me free from my sins, from my fear and pain, if only I would turn to Him. That day truly changed my life, and it is a day I never will forget.

God spoke to me in a way that was so very personal because He knows me, He knows everything about me. He formed me in my mother’s womb and had a plan for my life before I even took my first breath. He knows my weaknesses, and He knew that I would try to fix by myself the things that were causing me so much stress and worry in my life, instead of giving them to Him. I realize now that number one, it was my pride that was getting in the way, not willing to let Him have complete control over my life. Number two was my lack of faith in God to fix them. Number three was my lack of patience with Him for them to be fixed. I wanted to fix things and I wanted to fix them in my way and I wanted them to be fixed now! God, being the gentleman that He is, let me go about my ways of trying to fix the messes that I had contributed to making. Finally, when everything came to a head and I was broken, realizing I couldn’t fix anything, when I was at a point in my life when no one could help me, no one could understand what I was going through, not my husband, not my best friend, not my children, and I was all alone in my thoughts, my heartache, and my pain, I cried out to God to help me. That is when I heard Him say:

“Child of Mine, turn to Me. Swallow your pride, don’t leave My side. Trust in Me, and you will see I’m always here for you. Turn to Me, give it all to Me. Let go of the tears, let go of the pain. Give them all to Me. There’s no need to fear when I’m here. Turn to Me.”

Those words hit me like a bright light that opened my eyes to who God really is and they gave me hope, a hope like I hadn’t had in many years. I did turn to God that day. With my broken heart, I believed. I believed in His power and ability to pull me out of the pit I was in, and when I did, I felt like a 2,000-pound weight had been lifted off of my back. I could breathe. The burden of my sins had been taken by the One who came to set us, to set me, free from all my sins: Jesus Christ.

My heart was so full of love for God that He would speak to me in such a way that I absolutely knew it was Him and it was so very personal to me. That is just the way He works. He wants us to know Him personally, which is why He chose men long ago to write His word - the Bible - for all of mankind so that we may read it for ourselves and know Him and of His deep, deep love for us, a love like no other.

I had never heard the words “Turn to Me” in reference to God until that day I turned to Him, and since then, I have read several times in the Bible that uses that phrase or a similar one, including:

“‘Now, therefore,’ says the LORD, ‘Turn to Me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning.’ So rend your heart, and not your garments; return to the LORD your God, for He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness; and He relents from doing harm.” (Joel 2:12-13)

“Look [or Turn] to Me and be saved, all you ends of the earth! For I am God, and there is no other.” (Isaiah 45:22)

“All the ends of the world shall remember and turn to the LORD, and all the families of the nations shall worship before You. For the kingdom is the LORD’s, and He rules over the nations.” (Psalm 22:27-28)

“And the hand of the Lord was with them, and a great number believed and turned to the Lord.” (Acts 11:21)

God doesn’t want our outward actions or our empty praises of Him; He wants our hearts. He wants to know that we truly believe in Him and we will trust in Him no matter what comes our way. He wants us to give up our futile ways of handling problems ourselves and to give them all to Him. When we do, we are able to sleep at night, we don’t have anxious thoughts that weaken not only our mind but also our body, and most importantly, we grow in our relationship with God, knowing that He has this. When the issue or the problem isn’t fixed the way we would like it to be or in the timeframe we had hoped for, we must not let the enemy - Satan - get into our heads and cause us to doubt God’s love for us and the fact that He knows what is best for us.

It was the serpent Satan who put thoughts of doubt in Eve’s mind when he asked her in the Garden, “Has God indeed said, ‘You shall not eat of every tree of the garden?’” (Genesis 3:1) It was at that moment he put that seed of doubt into her mind. Instead of correctly answering to Satan what God had in fact commanded to Adam, Eve added to what God had said, saying, “We may eat the fruit of the trees of the garden; but of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden, God has said, ‘You shall not eat it, nor shall you touch it, lest you die.’” (Genesis 3:2-3) God did not say that they should not touch the fruit of the tree in the midst of the garden. Why did Eve add to God’s words? I don’t know, but perhaps it was to make it seem like God was putting even more boundaries in their lives than He did in order to justify her coming sin. Then, the Bible tells us, “Then the serpent said to the woman, ‘You shall not surely die. For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.’” (Genesis 3:4-5) Satan tempted Eve, deceiving her by making her think that God was withholding something from her and Adam because God didn’t want them to be like Him. This is a lie from the pit of hell and Satan knew it, and Satan is still telling people that same lie today.

As they were with Adam and Eve, God’s commandments to us are for our protection, but sadly, most of the world does not see them that way, and we know that Eve and Adam didn’t see them that way either. When we open the doors of our lives to temptation, as Eve did when instead of telling the serpent that he lied and it was not what God said and walking away, she listened to him, and then she looked at the fruit, and “saw that the tree was good for food, that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate.” (Genesis 3:6) When we open our minds and our hearts to doubt the love of God for us, it is like opening the front door of our souls for Satan to come right in, pridefully deceiving us with his lies and deception, ensnaring us in our sin, making us operate on our feelings instead of the knowledge of God’s love for us. When we operate on our feelings, which is what I did for so many years in my life, we are in a trap that can only be set free by turning our hearts to God, letting go of our pride, and letting Him save us out of the pit. But, we must cry out to Him and then take His hand as He reaches toward us to pull us out; we must take that act of faith.

Has my life been a bed of roses since I took that act of faith? No, in fact, in many ways, my life got harder. I have cried many tears over family members gone astray and remain in their unbelief, friendships broken, the death of loved ones and of sweet pets, and not to mention all that craziness that has happened and is happening in our world, but since I turned to Him, I have been able to go through those difficult times with a hope I never had, no longer going through them with a sense of doom, like I couldn’t go on anymore. Having a relationship with Jesus Christ, where I know Him with my heart, the One whose knowledge of me is too wonderful and that is high and which I cannot attain, has given me confidence that I never had, knowing that He is with me always, and no matter what comes my way, I will get through it, in His perfect timing, in His perfect way. My job as His child is be patient, to be humble and trust in Him, to obey His commands, and to watch the work that He does in my life and in others in my life, always remembering that He loves me, as He loves you, more than we could ever know. If you haven’t turned to Him yet, what are you waiting for? Turn to Him today, before it’s too late. ✝️